When God Feels Far: Where Is He When I Feel Abandoned?

This volume speaks into the quiet ache of spiritual abandonment. It is for the believer who once felt close to God but now wakes up to silence, for the one who reads Scripture without encounter, prays without answers, worships without tears. Here, we face what few dare to admit out loud—that we can love God and still feel like He has left the room.

Each chapter of When God Feels Far unpacks the stages of holy disconnection: the shock of spiritual distance, the grief of faded intimacy, the shame of wondering if it’s your fault, and the soul-stretching faith it takes to remain when God seems to have withdrawn. Through story, reflection, and theological depth, this book offers no performance-based formulas, no quick spiritual resolutions. It instead holds space for the hidden ones who still show up despite the silence.

You will explore the deep psychological and spiritual layers of feeling forsaken by God—how abandonment shapes your identity, distorts your view of grace, and challenges the core of your relationship with the divine. But you will also find that even in the silence, God is not absent. He is drawing near in ways that do not shout. This book leads you gently into the truth that divine distance is not divine absence, and that God is often closest in the places where He seems most gone.